Jerusalem by Selma Lagerloef

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"Lord God!" exclaimed the cabin boy as he rushed out on deck, "that
poor boat has run into us, and now it will surely sink!"

It never occurred to him that the steamer could be imperilled, big
and fine as she was. The officers came hurrying up; but when they
saw it was only a sailing vessel that had collided with their ship,
they felt quite safe, and with the utmost confidence took the
necessary steps for getting the boats clear of each other.

The little cabin boy stood on the deck barelegged, his shirt
fluttering in the wind, and beckoned to the unhappy men on the
sailing vessel to come over to the steamer and save themselves. At
first no one seemed to take any notice of him, but presently a big
man with a red beard began motioning to him.

"Come over here, boy!" the man shouted, running to the side of the
vessel. "The steamer is sinking!"

The little boy had not the faintest notion of going over to the
sailing vessel. He shouted as loud as he could that the people on
the doomed boat should come over to _L'Univers_, and save their
lives.

While the other men on the three-master were working with poles and
boat hooks to free their vessel from the steamer, the man with the
red beard could think of nothing but the little cabin boy, for whom
he had evidently conceived an extraordinary pity. He put his hands
to his mouth, trumpet-like, and called: "Come over here, come over
here!"

The little lad looked forlorn and cold, standing on the deck in his
thin shirt. He stamped his foot and shook his fist at the men on
the other boat, because they would not mind him and board the
steamer. A huge greyhound like _L'Univers_, with six hundred
passengers and a crew of two hundred men, couldn't possibly go
down, he reasoned. And, of course, he could see that both the
captain and the sailors were just as calm as he was.

Of a sudden the man with the red beard seized a boat hook, thrust
it out toward the boy, got him by the shirt, and tried to pull him
on to the other ship. The boy was dragged as far as the ship's
railing, but there he managed to free himself of the hook. He was
not going to let himself be dragged over to a strange vessel that
was doomed.

Immediately afterward another crash was heard. The bowsprit of the
three-master had snapped, and the two ships were now clear of each
other. As the liner steamed ahead, the boy saw the big broken
bowsprit dangling in the bow of the other vessel, and he also saw
great clouds of sails drop down upon the crew.

The liner proceeded on her course at full speed, and the sailing
vessel was soon lost to sight in the fog. The last thing the boy
saw was the men trying to get out from under the mass of sails.
Thereupon the vessel disappeared as completely as if it had slipped
in behind a great wall. "It has already gone down," thought the
lad. And now he stood listening for distress calls.

Then a rough and powerful voice was heard to shout across to the
steamer: "Save your passengers! Put out your boats!"

Again there was silence, and again the boy listened for distress
calls. Then the voice was heard as if from far away: "Pray to God,
for you are lost!"

At that moment an old sailor stepped up to the captain. "We have a
big hole amidships; we are going down," he said, quietly and
impressively.

***

Soon after the nature of the accident had become known on the
steamer, a little lady appeared on deck. She had come from one of
the first-class cabins with certain and determined step. She was
dressed from top to toe, and her bonnet strings were tied in a
natty bowknot. She was a little old lady, with crimped hair, round,
owlish-looking eyes, and a florid complexion.

During the short time the voyage had lasted she had managed to
become acquainted with every one on board. Everybody knew that her
name was Miss Hoggs, and she had told them all--the crew as well as
passengers--time and again, that she was never afraid. She didn't
see why she need have any fear, she would have to die at one time
or another, she had said, and whether it happened soon or late was
immaterial to her. Nor was she afraid now; she had gone up on deck
simply to see if anything interesting or exciting was going on
there.

The first thing she saw was two sailors darting past with wild,
terrified faces. Stewards, half dressed, came running out from
their quarters to go down and waken the passengers and get them on
deck. An old sailor came up with an armful of life belts, which he
tossed on the deck. A little cabin boy in his shirt was crouching
in a corner, sobbing and shrieking that he was going to die. The
captain was on his bridge, and Miss Hoggs heard him give orders to
stop the engines and to man the lifeboats.

Engineers and stokers came rushing up the grimy ladder leading from
the engine room, shouting that the water had already reached the
fires. Miss Hoggs had hardly been on deck a moment before it was
thronged with steerage passengers, who had come up in a body,
shrieking that they would have to hurry and make for the boats,
otherwise none but the first and second class passengers would be
saved.

As the excitement and confusion increased, Miss Hoggs began to
realize that they were in actual danger; so she quietly slipped
away to the upper deck, where several life-boats hung in their
davits, just outside the railing. Up here there was not a soul, and
Miss Hoggs, without being seen, climbed over the railing and
scrambled into one of the boats suspended above the watery abyss.
As soon as she was well inside, she congratulated herself upon her
wisdom and foresight. That was the advantage of having a clear and
cool head, she thought. She knew that when once the boat was
lowered there would be a wild scramble for it; the crush in the
gangway and on the companion ladder would be something awful. Again
and again she congratulated herself on having thought of getting
into the boat beforehand.

Miss Hoggs's boat was hung far aft, but by leaning over the edge of
it she could see the companion ladder. Then she saw that a boat had
been manned, and that people were getting into it. Suddenly a
terrible cry went up. Some one in the excitement had fallen
overboard. This must have frightened the others, for cries arose
from all sides of the ship, and the passengers heedlessly crowded
the gangway, pushing and fighting their way toward the ladder. In
the struggle many of them went overboard. A few persons, who saw
that it would be impossible to get to the ladder, jumped into the
sea, thinking they would swim to the boat. Just then the lifeboat,
already loaded to its full capacity, rowed away. The people that
were in it drew their knives and threatened to cut of the fingers
of any one who attempted to get inside.

Miss Hoggs saw one boat after another launched. She also saw one
boat after another capsize under the weight of those who hurled
themselves down into them.

The lifeboats near to hers were .lowered, but for some
unaccountable reason no one had touched the one in which she was
seated. "Thank God they are leaving my boat alone till the worst is
over," she thought.

And Miss Hoggs heard and saw dreadful things. It seemed to her that
she was suspended over a hell. She could not see the deck itself,
but from the sounds that reached her, she gathered that a frightful
struggle was taking place there. She heard pistol shots and saw
blue smoke clouds rise in the air.

At last there came a moment when everything was hushed. "This would
be the right time to lower my boat," thought Miss Hoggs. She was
not at all afraid, but sat back with perfect composure until the
steamer began to settle. Then, for the first time, it dawned on
Miss Hoggs that _L'Univers_ was sinking, and that her boat had been
forgotten.

***

On board the steamer was a young American matron, a Mrs. Gordon,
who was on her way to Europe to visit her parents, who for some
years had been living in Paris. She had her two little boys with
her, and all three were asleep in their cabin when the accident
occurred. The mother was immediately awakened, and soon managed to
get the children partly dressed; then throwing a cloak over her
night robe, she went out into the narrow passageway between the
cabins.

The passage was full of people who had rushed out from their
staterooms to hurry on deck. Here it was not difficult to pass; but
in the companionway there was a terrible crush. She saw people
pushing and crowding, with no thought of any one but themselves, as
more than a hundred persons, all at one time, tried to rush up. The
young American woman stood holding her two children by the hand.
She looked longingly up the stairway, wondering how she could
manage to press through the throng with her little ones. The people
fought and struggled, thinking only of themselves. No one even
noticed her.

Mrs. Gordon glanced anxiously about in the hope of finding some one
who would take one of the boys and carry him to the deck, while she
herself took the other. But she saw no one she dared approach. The
men came dashing past, dressed every which way. Some were wrapped
in blankets, others had on ulsters over their nightshirts, and many
of them carried canes. When she saw the desperate look in the eyes
of these men, she felt that it would not be safe to speak to them.

Of the women, on the other hand, she had no fear; but there was
not one, even among them, to whom she would dare entrust her child.
They were all out of their senses, and could not have comprehended
what she wanted of them. She stood regarding them, wondering
whether there might not be one, perhaps, who had a bit of reason
left. But seeing them rush wildly past--some hugging the flowers
they had received on their departure from New York, others
shrieking and wringing their hands--she knew it was useless to
appeal to such frenzied people. Finally, she attempted to stop a
young man who had been her neighbour at table, and had shown her
marked attention.

"Oh, Mr. Martens--"

The man glowered at her with the same fixed savage stare that she
had seen in the eyes of the other men. He raised his cane
threateningly, and had she tried to detain him, he would have
struck her.

The next moment she heard a howl, which was hardly a howl, but
rather an angry murmur, as when a strong and sweeping wind becomes
bottled up in a narrow passage. It came from the people on the
companionway, whose progress had been suddenly impeded.

A cripple had been borne part way up the stairs--a man who was so
entirely helpless that he had to be carried to and from the table.
He was a large, heavy man, and his valet had with the greatest
difficulty managed to bear him on his back halfway up the stairs,
where he had paused to take breath. In the meantime, the pressure
from behind had become so tremendous that it had forced him to his
knees; and he and his master were taking up the whole width of the
stairway, thus creating an impassable obstruction.

Presently Mrs. Gordon saw a big, rough-looking man bend down, lift
up the cripple, and throw him over the banister. She also marked
that, horrible as was this spectacle, no one seemed to be either
shocked or moved by it. For nobody thought of anything save to rush
ahead. It was as if a stone lying in the road had been picked up
and tossed into the ditch--nothing more.

The young American mother saw that among these people there was no
hope of being saved; she and her children were doomed.

***

There were a young bride and groom on board who were on their
honeymoon. Their cabin was far down in the body of the ship, and
they had slept so soundly that they had not even heard the
collision. Nor was there much commotion in their part of the boat
afterward. And as no one had thought of calling them, they were
still asleep when every one else was on deck fighting for the
lifeboats. But they woke when the propeller, which the whole night
had been revolving directly under their heads, suddenly stopped.
The husband hurriedly drew on a garment or two, and ran out to see
what was up. In a few minutes he returned. He carefully closed the
cabin door after him before uttering a word. Then he said:

"The ship is sinking."

At the same time he sat down, and when his wife would have rushed
out, he begged her to remain with him.

"The boats have all gone," he said. "Most of the passengers have
been drowned, and those who are still on the ship are now up on
deck, fighting desperately for rafts and life belts." He told her
that in the gangway he was obliged to step over a woman who had
been trampled to death, and that he had heard the cries of the
doomed on all sides. "There's no chance of our being saved, so
don't go out! Let us die together!"

The young bride felt that he was right, and resignedly sat down
beside him.

"You wouldn't like to see all those people struggling and
fighting," he said. "Since we've got to die anyway, let us at least
have a peaceful death."

She knew that it was no more than right that she should stay there
with him the few short moments of life still left to them. Had she
not promised to give him a whole life time of devotion?

"I had hoped," he went on, "that after we had been married many,
many years, you would be sitting by me when I lay on my deathbed,
and I would thank you for a long and happy life partnership."

At that moment she saw a thin streak of water trickling in through
the crack under the door. This was too much for her. She threw up
her arms in despair. "I can't!" she cried. "Let me go! I can't stay
shut in here waiting for death. I love you, but I can't do it!"

She rushed out just as the ship heeled over before going down.

***

Young Mrs. Gordon was lying in the water, the steamer had sunk, her
children were lost, and she herself had been deep under the sea.
She had then come to the surface for the third time and knew that
in another moment she would be sinking again, and that that would
mean death.

Then her mind no longer dwelt upon her husband or children, or upon
anything else of this earth. She thought only of lifting up her
soul to God. And her soul rose like a liberated prisoner. Her
spirit, rejoicing in the thought of casting off the heavy shackles
of human existence, jubilantly prepared to ascend to its real home.
"Is death so easy?" she mused.

As that thought came to her the medley of confusing noises around
her--the surging of the waves, the murmur of the wind, the shrieks
of the drowning, and the noises made by the colliding of the
various objects that were drifting around on the water--all seemed
to resolve themselves into words in the same way as shapeless
clouds sometimes form themselves into pictures. And this was what
she heard:

"It is a fact that death is easy, but to live, that is the
difficult thing!"

"Ah, so it is!" she thought, and wondered what was needed to make
living as easy as dying.

Round about her the shipwrecked people fought and struggled for the
floating wreckage and the overturned boats. But amid the mad cries
and curses, again the noises resolved themselves into clear and
powerful words:

"That which is needed to make life as easy as death is UNITY,
UNITY, UNITY."

It seemed to her that the Lord of all the earth had converted these
noises into a speaking tube, through which He himself had answered
her.

While the words that had been spoken were still ringing in her
ears, she was rescued. She had been drawn up into a small boat in
which there were only three persons besides herself--a brawny old
sailor dressed in his best, an elderly woman with round, owlish
eyes, and a poor little heartbroken boy, who had on nothing but a
torn shirt.

***

Late in the afternoon of the following day a Norwegian ship sailed
along the great banks of Newfoundland in the direction of the
fishing grounds. The sky was clear, and the sea was like a mirror.
The vessel could make but little headway. All the sails were set so
as to catch the last breaths of the dying breeze.

The sea looked very beautiful. It was a clear blue and smooth as
glass, but where the faintest breeze passed over it, it was a
silvery white.

When the afternoon stillness had continued for a while, the ship's
crew sighted a dark object floating on the water. Gradually it came
nearer, and soon they discovered that it was a human body. As it
was being carried by the current past the ship, they could tell by
the clothing that it was the body of a sailor. It was lying on its
back, with eyes wide open, and with a look of peace on its face.
Evidently the body had not been long enough in the water to become
disfigured. It was as if the sailor were complacently letting
himself be rocked by the tiny rippling wavelets.

When the sailors turned their gaze in the opposite direction, they
let out a cry. Before they could turn their faces, another body
appeared on the surface close to the bow of the boat. They came
near passing over it, but at the last moment it was washed away by
the swell. Now they all rushed to the side of the ship and looked
down. This time they saw the body of a child, a daintily dressed
little girl. "Dear, dear!" said the sailors, drying their eyes.
"The poor little kiddie!"

As the body of the little girl drifted past it seemed as if the
child were looking up at them. And there was such a serious
expression in its wistful eyes-as if it were out upon some very
urgent errand. Immediately after, one of the sailors shouted that
he saw another body, and the same thing was said by one who was
looking in an opposite direction. All at once they saw five bodies,
they saw ten, and then there were so many they could not count
them.

The ship moved slowly on among all these dead people, who
surrounded the vessel as if they wanted something. Some came
floating in large groups; they looked like driftwood that had been
carried away from land; but they were just a mass of dead bodies.

The sailors stood aghast, afraid to move. They could hardly believe
that what they saw was real. All at once they seemed to see an
island rising up out of the sea. From a distance it looked like
land, but, on coming nearer, they saw hundreds of bodies floating
close together, and surrounding the vessel on all sides. They moved
with the ship, as if wanting to make the voyage across the water in
its company. Then the skipper turned the rudder, so as to coax a
little wind into the sails; but it did not help much. The sails
hung limp, and the dead bodies continued to follow.

The sailors turned ashen, and silence fell upon them. The ship had
so little headway that she could not seem to get clear of the dead.
They were fearful lest it should go on like this the whole night.
Then a Swedish seaman stood up in the bow and repeated the Lord's
Prayer. Thereupon, he began to sing a hymn. When he had got half
through the hymn the sun went down, and the evening breeze came
along and carried the ship away from the region of the dead.

HELLGUM'S LETTER

An old woman came out from her little log cabin in the woods.
Although it was only a week day, she was dressed in her best, as if
for church. After locking her door she put the key in its usual
place, under the stoop.

When the old woman had gone a few paces, she turned round to look
at her cabin, which appeared very small and very gray under the
shadow of the towering snow-clad fir trees. She glanced at her
humble home with an affectionate gaze. "Many a happy day have
I spent in that little old hut!" she mused solemnly. "Ah me! The
Lord giveth, and the Lord taketh away."

Then she went on her way, down the forest road. She was very old
and exceeding fragile, but she was one of those who hold themselves
erect and firm, however much old age may try to bend them. She had
a sweet face and soft white hair. She looked so mild and gentle
that it was surprising to hear her speak with a voice that was as
strident and solemn as that of some old evangelist.

She had a long tramp ahead of her, for she was going down to the
Ingmar Farm to a meeting of the Hellgumists. Old Eva Gunnersdotter
was one of the most zealous converts to Hellgum's teachings. "Ah,
those were glorious times," she mumbled to herself as she trudged
on, "in the beginning when half the parish had gone over to
Hellgum! Who would have thought that so many were going to
backslide, and that after five years there would be hardly more
than a score of us left--not counting the children, of course!"

Her thoughts went back to the time when she, who for many years had
lived in solitude in the heart of the forest, forgotten by every
one, all at once had found a lot of brothers and sisters who came
to her in her loneliness, who never forgot to clear a path to her
cabin after a big snowfall, and who always kept her little shed
well filled with dry firewood--and all without her having to ask
for it. She recalled to mind the time when Karin, daughter of
Ingmar, and her sisters, and many more of the best people in the
parish, used to come and hold love feasts in her little gray cabin.

"Alas, that so many should have abandoned the only true way of
salvation!" she sighed. "Now retribution will come upon us. Next
summer we must all perish because so few among us have heard the
call, and because those who have heard it have not continued
steadfast."

The old woman then fell to pondering over Hellgum's letters, those
letters which the Hellgumists regarded as Apostolic writings and
read aloud at all their meetings, as the Bible is read in the
churches. "There was a time when Hellgum was as milk and honey to
us," she reflected. "Then he commanded us to be kind and tolerant
toward the unconverted, and to show gentle forbearance toward those
who had fallen away; he taught the rich that in their works of
charity they must treat the just and the unjust alike. But lately
he has been as wormwood and gall. He writes about nothing but
trials and punishments."

The old woman had now reached the edge of the forest, from where
she could look down over the village. It was a lovely day in
February. The snow had spread its white purity over the whole
district; all the trees were deep in their winter sleep, and not a
breath of wind stirred. But she was thinking that all this
beautiful country, wrapped in peaceful slumber, would soon be
awakened only to be consumed by a rain of fire and brimstone.
Everything that was now lying under a cover of snow, she seemed to
see enveloped in flame.

"He hasn't put it into plain words," thought the old woman, "but
he keeps writing all the while about a _sore trial_. Mercy me! Who
could wonder at it if this parish were to be punished as was Sodom,
and overthrown like Babylon!"

As Eva Gunnersdotter wandered through the village, she could not
look up at a single house without picturing to herself how the
coming earthquake would shake it and crumble it into dust and
ashes. And when she met people along the way, she thought of how
the monsters of hell would soon hunt and devour them.

"Ah, here comes the schoolmaster's Gertrude!" she remarked to
herself as she saw a pretty young girl coming down the road. "Her
eyes sparkle like sunbeams on the snow. She feels happy now because
she expects to be married in the fall to young Ingmar Ingmarsson. I
see she has a bundle of thread tucked under her arm. She is going
to weave table covers and bed hangings for her new home. But before
that weaving is done, destruction will be upon us."

The old woman cast dark glances about her. She could see that the
village had grown and developed into an astonishing thing of
beauty, but she thought that all these pretty white-and-yellow
houses, with their fancy gables and their big bowed windows, would
collapse the same as her humble gray cabin, where moss grew in the
cracks between the logs, and the windows were only holes in the
wall. When she reached the heart of the town, she stopped short and
struck her cane hard against the pavement. A sudden feeling of
indignation had seized her. "Woe, woe!" she cried, in so loud a
voice that people in the street paused and looked round. "Yea, in
all these houses live such as have rejected the Gospel of Christ
and cling to the enemy's teaching. Why didn't they listen to the
call and turn away from their sins? On their account we must all
perish. God's hand strikes heavily. It strikes both the just and
the unjust."

When she had crossed the river she was overtaken by some of the
other Hellgumists. They were Corporal Felt and Bullet Gunner and
his wife, Brita. Shortly afterward, they were joined by Hoek Matts
Ericsson, his son Gabriel, and Gunhild, the daughter of Councilman
Clementsson.

All these people in their gayly coloured national costumes made a
pretty picture walking along the snow-covered road. But to the mind
of Eva Gunnersdotter, they were only doomed prisoners being led to
the place of execution, like cattle driven to slaughter.

The Hellgumists looked quite dejected. They walked along, their
eyes on the ground, as if weighed down by a terrible load of
discouragement. They had all expected that the Celestial Kingdom
would suddenly spread over the whole earth, and that they would
live to see the day when the New Jerusalem should come down from
the clouds of heaven. But now that they had become so few in
number, and could not help seeing that theirs was a forlorn hope,
it was as if something within them had snapped. They moved slowly
and with dragging steps. Now and then a sigh would escape them, but
they seemed to have nothing to say to each other. For this had been
a matter of supreme earnest with them. They had staked their all
upon it, and had lost.

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