The Primrose Ring by Ruth Sawyer
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Margaret MacLean nodded. "There was; Miss N----"--and she named the
Youngest and Prettiest Trustee--"generally comes an hour before the
meeting and reads to them; but to-day she was detained by a--tango tea,
I believe. That's why I chose this." Her eyes danced unconsciously as
she tapped the book.
The President looked at her sharply. "I should think, my dear young
lady, that you, of all persons, would realize what a very serious thing
life is to any one in this condition. Instead of that I fear at times
that you are--shall I say--flippant?" He turned about and looked at
the children. "How do you do?" he asked, kindly.
"Thank you, sir, we are very well, sir," they chorused in reply. Saint
Margaret's was never found wanting in politeness.
The President left; and the nurse in charge of Ward C went on with the
reading.
"'The Tin Soldier stood up to his neck in water; deeper and deeper sank
the boat, and the paper became more and more limp; then the water
closed over him; but the Tin Soldier remained firm and shouldered his
musket.'"
A group filled the doorway; it was the voice of the Oldest Trustee that
floated in. "This, my dear, is the incurable ward; we are very much
interested in it."
They stood just over the threshold--the Oldest Trustee in advance, her
figure commanding and unbent, for all her seventy years, and her
lorgnette raised. As she was speaking a little gray wisp of a woman
detached herself from the group and moved slowly down the row of cots.
"Yes," continued the Oldest Trustee, "we have two cases of congenital
hip disease and three of spinal tuberculosis--that is one of them in
the second crib." Her eyes moved on from Sandy to Rosita. "And the
fifth patient has such a dreadful case of rheumatism. Sad, isn't it,
in so young a child? Yes, the Senior Surgeon says it is absolutely
incurable."
Margaret MacLean closed the book with a bang; for five minutes the
children had been looking straight ahead with big, conscious eyes,
hearing not a word. Rebellion gripped at her heart and she rose
quickly and went over to the group.
"Wouldn't you like to come in and talk to the children? They are
rather sober this afternoon; perhaps you could make them laugh."
"Yes, wouldn't you like to go in?" put in the Oldest Trustee. "They
are very nice children."
But the visitors shrank back an almost infinitesimal distance; and one
said, hesitatingly:
"I'm afraid we wouldn't know quite what to say to them."
"Perhaps you would like to see the new pictures for the nurses' room?"
the nurse in charge suggested, wistfully.
The Oldest Trustee glanced at her with a hint of annoyance. "We have
already seen them. I think you must have forgotten, my dear, that it
was I who gave them."
With flashing cheeks Margaret MacLean fled from Ward C. If she had
stayed long enough to watch the little gray wisp of a woman move
quietly from cot to cot, patting each small hand and asking, tenderly,
"And what is your name, dearie?" she might have carried with her a
happier feeling. At the door of the board-room she ran into the House
Surgeon.
"Is it as bad as all that?" he asked after one good look at her.
"It's worse--a hundred times worse!" She tossed her head angrily. "Do
you know what is going to happen some day? I shall forget who I
am--and who they are and what they have done for me--and say things
they will never forgive. My mind-string will just snap, that's all;
and every little pestering, forbidden thought that has been kicking its
heels against self-control and sense-of-duty all these years will come
tumbling out and slip off the edge of my tongue before I even know it
is there."
"They are some hot little thoughts, I wager," laughed the House Surgeon.
And then, from the far end of the cross-corridor, came the voice of the
Oldest Trustee, talking to the group:
". . . such a very sweet girl--never forgets her place or her duty.
She was brought here from the Foundling Asylum when she was a baby, in
almost a dying condition. Every one thought it was an incurable case;
the doctors still shake their heads over her miraculous recovery. Of
course it took years; and she grew up in the hospital."
With a look of dumb, battling anger the nurse in charge of Ward C
turned from the House Surgeon--her hands clenched--while the voice of
the Oldest Trustee came back to them, still exhibiting:
"No, we have never been able to find out anything about her parentage;
undoubtedly she was abandoned. We named her 'Margaret MacLean,' after
the hospital and the superintendent who was here then. Yes, indeed--a
very, very sad--"
When the Oldest Trustee reached the boardroom it was empty, barring the
primroses, which were guilelessly nodding in the green Devonshire bowl
on the President's desk.
IV
CURABLES AND INCURABLES
No one who entered the board-room that late afternoon remembered that
it was May Eve; and even had he remembered, it would have amounted to
nothing more than the mental process of association. It would not have
given him the faintest presentiment that at that very moment the Little
People were busy pressing their cloth-o'-dream mantles and reblocking
their wishing-caps; that the instant the sun went down the spell would
be off the faery raths, setting them free all over the world, and that
the gates of Tir-na-n'Og would be open wide for mortals to wander back
again. No, not one of the board remembered; the trustees sat looking
straight at the primroses and saw nothing, felt nothing, guessed
nothing.
They were not unusual types of trustees who served on the board of
Saint Margaret's. You could find one or more of them duplicated in the
directors' book of nearly any charitable institution, if you hunted for
them; the strange part was, perhaps, that they were gathered together
in a single unit of power. Besides the Oldest and the Meanest
Trustees, there were the Executive, the Social, the Disagreeable, the
Busiest, the Dominating, the Calculating, the Petty, and the Youngest
and Prettiest. She came fluttering in a minute late from her tea; and
right after her came the little gray wisp of a woman, who sat down in a
chair by the door so unpretentiously as to make it appear as though she
did not belong among them. When the others saw her they nodded
distantly: they had just been talking about her.
It seemed that she was the widow of the Richest Trustee. The board had
elected her to fill her husband's place lest the annual check of ten
thousand--a necessary item on Saint Margaret's books--might not be
forthcoming; and this was her first meeting. It was, in fact, her
first visit to the hospital. She could never bear to come during her
husband's trusteeship because, children having been denied her, she had
wished to avoid them wherever and whenever she could, and spare herself
the pain their suggestion always brought her. She would not have come
now, but that her husband's memory seemed to require it of her.
For years gossip had been busy with the wife of the Richest Trustee--as
the widow she did not relax her hold. What the trustees said that day
they only repeated from gossip: the little gray wisp of a woman was a
nonentity--nothing more--with the spirit of a mouse. She held no
position in society, and what she did with her time or her money no one
knew. The trustees smiled inwardly and reckoned silently with
themselves; at least they would never need to fear opposition from her
on any matter of importance.
The last person of all to enter the boardroom was the Senior Surgeon.
The President had evidently waited for him, for he nodded to the House
Surgeon to close the doors the moment he came.
Now the Senior Surgeon was a man who used capitals for Surgery,
Science, and Self, unconsciously eliminating them elsewhere. He had
begun in Saint Margaret's as house surgeon; and he had grown to be
considered by many of his own profession the leading man of his day.
The trustees were as proud of him as they were of the hospital, and it
has never been recorded in the traditions of Saint Margaret's that the
Senior Surgeon had ever asked for anything that went ungranted. He
seldom attended a board meeting; consequently when he came in at
five-thirty there was an audible rustle of excitement and the raising
of anticipatory eyebrows.
When the President called the meeting to order every trustee was
present, as well as the heads of the four wards, the Superintendent,
and the two surgeons. The Senior Surgeon sat next to the President;
the House Surgeon sat where he could watch equally well the profiles of
the Youngest and Prettiest Trustee and Margaret MacLean. His heart had
always been inclined to intermit; or--as he put it to himself--he
adored them both in quite opposite ways; and which way was the better
and more endurable he had never been able to decide.
"In view of the fact," said the President, rising, "that the Senior
Surgeon can be with us but a short time this afternoon, and that he has
a grave and vital issue to present to you, we will postpone the regular
reports until the end of the meeting and take up at once the business
in hand." He paused a moment, feeling the dramatic value of his next
remark. "For some time the Senior Surgeon has seriously questioned
the--hmm--advisability of continuing the incurable ward. He wishes
very much to bring the matter before you, and he is prepared to give
you his reasons for so doing. Afterward, I think it would be wise for
us to discuss the matter very informally." He bowed to the Senior
Surgeon and sat down.
The Meanest Trustee snapped his teeth together in an expression of grim
satisfaction. "That ward is costing a lot of unnecessary expense, I
think," he barked out, sharply, "and it's being run with altogether too
free a hand." And he looked meaningly toward Margaret MacLean.
No one paid any particular attention to his remark; they were too
deeply engrossed in the Senior Surgeon. And the House Surgeon,
watching, saw the profile of the Youngest and Prettiest Trustee become
even prettier as it blushed and turned in witching eagerness toward the
man who was rising to address the meeting. The other profile had
turned rigid and white as a piece of marble.
Now the Senior Surgeon could do a critical major operation in twenty
minutes; and he could operate on critical issues quite as rapidly.
Speed was his creed; therefore he characteristically attacked the
subject in hand without any prefatory remarks.
"Ladies and gentlemen of the board, the incurable ward is doing
nothing. I can see no possible reason or opportunity for further
observation or experimentation there. Every case in it at the present
time, as well as every Case that is likely to come to us, is as a
sealed document as far as science is concerned. They are
incurable--they will remain incurable for all time."
"How do you know?" The question came from the set lips of the nurse in
charge of Ward C.
"How do we know anything in science? We prove it by undeniable,
irrevocable facts."
"Even then you are not sure of it. I was proved incurable--but I got
well."
"That proves absolutely nothing!" And the Senior Surgeon growled as he
always did when things went against his liking. "You were a case in a
thousand--in a lifetime. Because it happened once--here in this
hospital--is no reason for believing that it will ever happen again."
"Oh yes, it is!" persisted Margaret MacLean. "There is just as much
reason for believing as for not believing. Every one of those
children, in the ward now might--yes, they might--be a case in a
thousand; and no one has any right to take that thousandth of a chance
away from them."
"You are talking nonsense--stupid, irrational nonsense." And the
Senior Surgeon glared at her.
The truth was that he had never forgiven her for getting well. To have
had a slip of a girl juggle with the most reliable of scientific data,
as well as with his own undeniable skill as a diagnostician, and grow
up normally, healthfully perfect, was insufferable. He had never quite
forgiven the Old Senior Surgeon for his share in it. And to have her
stand against him and his great desire, now, and actually throw this
thing in his face, was more than he could endure. He did not know that
Margaret MacLean was fighting for what she loved most on earth, the one
thing that seemed to belong to her, the thing that had been given into
her keeping by the right of a memory bequeathed to her by the man he
could not save. Truth to tell, Margaret MacLean had never quite
forgiven the Senior Surgeon for this, blameless as she knew him to be.
And so for the space of a quick breath the two faced each other,
aggressive and accusing.
When the Senior Surgeon turned again to the President and the trustees
his face wore a faint smile suggestive of amused toleration.
"I hope the time will soon come," he said very distinctly, "when every
training-school for nurses will bar out the so-called sentimental,
imaginative type; they do a great deal of harm to the profession. As I
was saying, the incurable ward is doing nothing, and we need it for
surgical cases. Look over the reports for the last few months and you
will see how many cases we have had to turn away--twenty in March,
sixteen in February; and this month it is over thirty--one a day. Now
why waste that room for no purpose?"
"Every one of those cases could get into, some of the other hospitals;
but who would take the incurables? What would you do with the children
in Ward C, now?" and Margaret MacLean's voice rang out its challenge.
The Senior Surgeon managed to check an angry explosive and turned to
the President for succor.
"I think," said that man of charitable parts, "that the meeting is
getting a trifle too informal for order. After the Senior Surgeon has
finished I will call on those whom I feel have something
of--hmm--importance to say. In the mean time, my dear young lady, I
beg of you not to interrupt again. The children, of course, could all
be returned to their homes."
"Oh no, they couldn't--" There was something hypnotic in the
persistence of the nurse in charge of Ward C.
Usually keenly sensitive, abnormally alive to impressions and
atmosphere, she shrank from ever intruding herself or her opinions
where they were not welcome; but now all personal consciousness was
dead. She was wholly unaware that she had worked the Senior Surgeon
into a state where he had almost lost his self-control--a condition
heretofore unknown in the Senior Surgeon; that she had exasperated the
President and reduced the trustees to open-mouthed amazement. The
lorgnette shook unsteadily in the hand of the Oldest; and, unmindful of
it all, Margaret MacLean went steadily on:
"Most of them haven't any homes, and the others couldn't live in theirs
a month. You don't know how terrible they are--five families in one
garret, nothing to eat some of the time, father drunk most of the time,
and filth and foul air all of the time. That's the kind of homes they
have--if they have any."
Her outburst was met with a complete silence, ignoring and humiliating.
After a moment the Senior Surgeon went on, as if no one had spoken.
"Am I not right in supposing that you wish to further, as far as it
lies within your power, the physical welfare and betterment of the poor
in this city? That you wish to do the greatest possible good to the
greatest number of children? Ah! I thought so. Well, do you not see
how continuing to keep a number of incurable cases for two or three
years--or as long as they live--is hindering this? You are keeping out
so many more curable cases. For every case in that ward now we could
handle ten or fifteen surgical cases each year. Is that not worth
considering?"
The trustees nodded approval to one another; it was as if they would
say, "The Senior Surgeon is always right."
The surgeon himself looked at his watch; he had three minutes left to
clinch their convictions. Clearly and admirably he outlined his
present scope of work; then, stepping into the future, he showed into
what it might easily grow, had it the room and beds. He showed
indisputably what experimental surgery had done for science--what a
fertile field it was; and wherein lay Saint Margaret's chance to plow a
furrow more and reap its harvest. At the end he intimated that he had
outgrown his present limited conditions there, that unless these were
changed he should have to betake himself and his operative skill
elsewhere.
A painfully embarrassing hush closed in on the meeting as the Senior
Surgeon resumed his seat. It was broken by an enthusiastic chirp from
the Youngest and Prettiest Trustee. She had never attempted to keep
her interest for him concealed in the bud, causing much perturbation to
the House Surgeon, and leading the Disagreeable Trustee to remark,
frequently:
"Good Lord! She'll throw herself at his head until he loses
consciousness, and then she'll marry him."
"I think," said she, beaming in the direction of the Senior Surgeon,
"that it would be perfectly wonderful to be the means of discovering
some great new thing in surgery. And as our own great surgeon has just
said, it is really ridiculous to let a few perfectly incurable cases
stand in the way of science."
The House Surgeon looked from the beaming profile to the tense, drawn
outline of mouth and chin belonging to the nurse in charge of Ward C,
and he found himself wondering if art had ever pictured a crucified
Madonna, and, if so, why it had not taken Margaret MacLean as a model.
That moment the President called his name.
[Illustration: The House Surgeon looked from the beaming profile to the
tense, drawn outline of mouth and chin belonging to the nurse in charge
of Ward C.]
The House Surgeon was still young and unspoiled enough to blush
whenever he was consulted. Moreover, he hated to speak in public,
knowing, as he did, that he lacked the cultured manner and the polished
speech of the Senior Surgeon. He always crawled out of it whenever he
could, putting some one else more ready of tongue in his place. He was
preparing to crawl this time when another look at the white profile in
front of him brought him to his feet.
"See here," he burst out, bluntly, "we all know the chief is as clever
as any surgeon in the country, and that he can do anything in the world
he sets out to do, even to turning Saint Margaret's into a surgical
laboratory. But you ought to stop him--you've got to stop him--that is
your business as trustees of this institution. We don't need any more
surgical laboratories just yet--they are getting along fast enough at
Rockefeller, Johns Hopkins, and the Mayo clinic. What we scientific
chaps need to remember--and it ought to be hammered at us three times a
day, and then some--is that humanity was never put into the world for
the sole purpose of benefiting science. We are apt to forget this and
get to thinking that a few human beings more or less don't count in the
face of establishing one scientific fact."
He paused just long enough to snatch a breath, and then went racing
madly on. "Institutions are apt to forget that they are taking care of
the souls and minds of human beings as well as their bodies. It seems
to me that the man who founded this hospital intended it for humane
rather than scientific purposes. His wishes ought to be considered
now; and I wager he would say, if he were here, to let science go hang
and keep the incurables."
The House Surgeon sat down, breathing heavily and mopping his forehead.
It was the longest speech he had ever made, and he was painfully
conscious of its inadequacy. The Senior Surgeon excused himself and
left the room, not, however, until he had given the House Surgeon a
look pregnant with meaning; Saint Margaret's would hardly be large
enough to hold them both after the 30th of April.
The trustees moved restlessly in their chairs. The unexpected had
happened; there was an internal rupture at Saint Margaret's; and for
forty years the trustees had boasted of its harmonious behavior and
kindly feelings. In a like manner do those dwellers in the shadow of a
volcano continue to boast of their safety and the harmlessness of the
crater up to the very hour of its eruption. And all the while the gray
wisp of a woman by the door sat silent, her hands still folded on her
lap.
At last the President rose; he coughed twice before speaking. "I think
we will call upon the hospital committee now for their reports.
Afterward we will take up the question of the incurable ward among the
trustees--hmm--alone."
Every one sat quietly, almost listlessly, during the reading until
Margaret MacLean rose, the report for Ward C in her hand. Then there
came a raising of heads and a stiffening of backs and a setting of
chins. She was very calm, the still calm of the China Sea before a
typhoon strikes it; when she had finished reading she put the report on
the chair back of her and faced the President with clasped hands and--a
smile.
"It's funny," she said, irrelevantly, "for the first time in my life I
am not afraid here."
And the House Surgeon muttered, under his breath: "Great guns! That
mind-string has snapped."
"There is more to the report than I had the courage to write down when
I was making it out; but I can give it very easily now, if you will not
mind listening a little longer. You have always thought that I came
back to Saint Margaret's because I felt grateful for what you had done
for me--for the food and the clothes and the care, and later for the
education that you paid for. This isn't true. I am grateful--very
grateful--but it is a dutiful kind of gratitude which wouldn't have
brought me back in a thousand years. I am so sorry to feel this way.
Perhaps I would not if, in all the years that I was here as a child,
one of you had shown me a single personal kindness, or some one had
thought to send me a letter or a message while I was away at school.
No, you took care of me because you thought it was your duty, and I am
grateful for the same reason; but it was quite another thing which
brought me back to Saint Margaret's."
The smile had gone; she was very sober now. And the House Surgeon,
still watching the two profiles, suddenly felt his heart settle down to
a single steady beat. He wanted to get up that very instant and tell
the nurse in charge of Ward C what had happened and what he thought of
her; but instead he dug his hands deep in his pockets. How in the name
of the seven continents had he never before realized that she was the
sweetest, finest, most adorable, and onliest girl in the world, and
worth a whole board-room full of youngest and prettiest trustees?
"I came back," went on Margaret MacLean, slowly, "really because of the
Old Senior Surgeon, to stand, as he stood in the days long ago, between
you and the incurable ward; to shut out--if I could--the little,
thoughtless, hurting things that you are always saying without being in
the least bit conscious of them, and to keep the children from wanting
too much the friendship and loving interest that, somehow, they
expected from you. I wanted to try and make them feel that they were
not case this and case that, abnormally diseased and therefore objects
of pity and curiosity to be pointed out to sympathetic visitors, but
children--just children--with a right to be happy and loved. I wanted
to fill their minds so full of fun and make-believe that they would
have to forget about their poor little bodies. I tried to make you
feel this and help without putting it--cruelly--into words; but you
would never understand. You have never let them forget for a moment
that they are 'incurables,' any more than you have let me forget that I
am a--foundling."
She stopped a moment for breath, and the smile came back--a wistfully
pleading smile. "I am afraid that last was not in the report. What I
want to say is--please keep the incurable ward; take the time to really
know them--and love them a little. If you only could you would never
consider sending them away for a moment. And if, in addition to the
splendid care you have given their bodies, you would only help to keep
their minds and hearts sound and sweet, and shield them against curious
visitors, why--why--some of them might turn out to be 'a case in a
thousand.' Don't you see--can't you see--that they have as much right
to their scraps of life and happiness--as your children have to their
complete lives, and that there is no place for them anywhere if Saint
Margaret's closes her doors?"
With an overwhelming suddenness she became conscious of the attitude of
the trustees. She, who was nothing but a foundling and a charity
patient herself, had dared to pass judgment on them; it was
inconceivable--it was impertinent--it was beyond all precedent. Only
the gray wisp of a woman sat silent, seeming to express nothing.
Margaret MacLean's cheeks flamed; she shrank into herself, her whole
being acutely alive to their thoughts. The scared little-girl look
came into her face.
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