Muslin by George Moore

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Whatever Mrs. Barton's faults may have been, she did her duty, as she
conceived it, by her daughter; and during the long dinner, through the
leaves of the flowering-plants, she watched her Olive anxiously. A
hundred and twenty people were present. Mothers and eligible daughters,
judges, lords, police-officers, earls, poor-law inspectors, countesses,
and Castle officials. Around the great white-painted, gold-listed walls
the table, in the form of a horseshoe, was spread. In the soothing light
of the shaded lamps the white glitter of the piled-up silver danced over
the talking faces, and descended in silvery waves into the bosoms of the
women. Salmon and purple-coloured liveries passed quickly; and in the
fragrance of soup and the flavours of sherry, in the lascivious pleasing
of the waltz tunes that Liddell's band poured from a top gallery, the
goodly company of time-servers, panders, and others forgot their fears
of the Land League and the doom that was now waxing to fulness.

To the girls the dinner seemed interminable, but at the 'private dance'
afterwards those who were known in official circles, or were fortunate
enough to meet their friends, amused themselves. It took place in the
Throne-Room. As the guests arrived they scanned each other narrowly.
People who had known each other from childhood upwards, as they met on
the landing, affected a look of surprise: 'Oh, so you are here? I wonder
how you got your invitation? Well, I suppose you are better than I took
you to be!' Acquaintances saluted each other more cordially than was
their wont: he or she who had dined at the Castle took his or her place
at once among the _elite;_ he or she who had come to dance was
henceforth considered worthy of a bow in Grafton Street. For Dublin is a
city without a conviction, without an opinion. Things are right and
wrong according to the dictum of the nearest official. If it be not
absolutely ill-bred to say you think this, or are inclined to take such
or such a view, it is certainly more advisable to say that the
Attorney-General thinks so, or that on one occasion you heard the State
Steward, the Chamberlain, or any other equally distinguished underling,
express this or that opinion. Castle tape is worn in time of mourning
and in the time of feasting. Every gig-man in the Kildare Street wears
it in his buttonhole, and the ladies of Merrion Square are found to be
gartered with it.

Mrs. Barton's first thought was to get Olive partners. Milord and Lord
Rosshill were sent hither and thither, and with such good result that
the whole evening the beauty was beset with A.D.C.'s. But the Marquis
had danced three times with Violet Scully, and Mrs. Barton vented her
anger on poor Alice. The girl knew no one, nor was there time to
introduce her to men. She was consequently sent off with Milord to see
where the Marquis was hiding; and she was commissioned to tell her
sister to answer thus when Lord Kilcarney asked for another dance: 'I am
engaged, _cher marquis_, but for you, of course, I shall have to throw
some poor fellow over.' Mrs. Barton did not know how to play a waiting
game. Her tactics were always to grapple with the enemy. She was a
Hannibal: she risked all to gain all. Mrs. Scully, on the contrary,
watched the combat from afar--as Moltke did the German lines when they
advanced upon Paris.

The Bartons were not invited to the next private dance, which was
annoying, and after long conjecturing as to the enemy that had served
them this trick, they resigned themselves to the inevitable, and began
to look forward to the State ball given on the following Monday.

As they mounted the stairway Mrs. Barton said:

'You know we turn to the left this time and enter Patrick's Hall by this
end; the other entrance is blocked up by the dais--only the three and
four season girls stand about the pillars. There they are drawn up in
battle array.'

'I declare Olive Barton is here!' whispered the redoubtable Bertha;
'this doesn't look as if the beaux were coming forward in their
hundreds. It is said that Lord Kilcarney has given her up for Violet
Scully.'

'I'm not a bit surprised,' said the girl in red; 'and, now I think of
it, all the beauties come to the same end. I'll just give her a couple
more Castle seasons. It is that that will pull the fine feathers out of
her.'

St. Patrick's Hall was now a huge democratic crush. All the little sharp
glances of the 'private dances,' 'What, you here!' were dispensed with
as useless, for all were within their rights in being at the ball. They
pushed, laughed, danced. They met as they would have met in Rotten Row,
and they took their amusement with the impartiality of pleasure-seekers
jigging and drinking in a marketplace on fair-day. On either side of the
Hall there were ascending benches; these were filled with chaperons and
_debutantes_, and over their heads the white-painted, gold-listed walls
were hung with garlands of evergreen oak interwoven with the celebrated
silver shields, the property of the Cowper family, and in front of the
curtains hanging about the dais, the maroon legs of His Excellency, and
the teeth and diamonds of Her Excellency, were seen passing to and fro,
and up and down to the music of oblivion that Liddell dispensed with a
flowing arm.

'Now aren't the Castle balls very nice?' said Bertha; 'and how are you
amusing yourself?'

'Oh, very much indeed,' replied the poor _debutante_ who had not even a
brother to take her for a walk down the room or to the buffet for an
ice.

'And is it true, Bertha,' asks the fierce aunt--'you know all the
news--that Mr. Jones has been transferred to another ship and has gone
off to the Cape?'

'Yes, yes,' replied the girl; 'a nice end to her beau; and after
dinnering him up the whole summer, too.'

Alice shuddered. What were they but snowflakes born to shine for a
moment and then to fade, to die, to disappear, to become part of the
black, the foul-smelling slough of mud below? The drama in muslin was
again unfolded, and she could read each act; and there was a 'curtain'
at the end of each. The first was made of young, hopeful faces, the
second of arid solicitation, the third of the bitter, malignant tongues
of Bertha Duffy and her friend. She had begun to experience the worst
horrors of a Castle ball. She was sick of pity for those around her, and
her lofty spirit resented the insult that was being offered to her sex.

'Have you been long here, Miss Barton?' She looked up. Harding was by
her! 'I have been looking out for you, but the crowd is so great that it
is hard to find anyone.'

'I think we arrived about a quarter to eleven,' Alice answered.

Then, after a pause, Harding said: 'Will you give me this waltz?' She
assented, and, as they made their way through the dancers, he added:
'But I believe you do not care about dancing. If you'd prefer it, we
might go for a walk down the room. Perhaps you'd like an ice? This is
the way to the buffet.'

But Alice and Harding did not stop long there; they were glad to leave
the heat of gas, the odour of sauces, the effervescence of the wine, the
detonations of champagne, the tumult of laughter, the racing of plates,
the heaving of bosoms, the glittering of bodices, for the peace and the
pale blue refinement of the long blue drawing-room. How much of our
sentiments and thoughts do we gather from our surroundings; and the
shining blue of the turquoise-coloured curtains, the pale dead-blue of
the Louis XV. furniture, and the exquisite fragility of the glass
chandeliers, the gold mirrors rutilant with the light of some hundreds
of tall wax candles, were illustrative of the light dreams and delicate
lassitude that filled the souls of the women as they lay back whispering
to their partners, the crinolettes lifting the skirts over the edges of
the sofas. Here the conversation seems serious, there it is smiling, and
broken by the passing and repassing of a fan.

'Only four days more of Dublin,' said Harding; 'I have settled, or
rather the fates have settled, that I am to leave next Saturday.'

'And where are you going? to London?'

'Yes, to London. I am sorry I am leaving so soon; but it can't be
helped. I have met many nice people here--some of whom I shall not be
able to forget.'

'You speak as if it were necessary to forget them--it is surely always
better to remember.'

'I shall remember you.'

'Do you think you will?'

At this moment only one thing in the world seemed to be of much real
importance--that the man now sitting by her side should not be taken
away from her. To know that he existed, though far from her, would be
almost enough--a sort of beacon-light--a light she might never reach to,
but which would guide her . . . whither?

In no century have men been loved so implicitly by women as in the
nineteenth; nor could this be otherwise, for putting aside the fact that
the natural wants of love have become a nervous erethism in the struggle
that a surplus population of more than two million women has created,
there are psychological reasons that to-day more than ever impel women to
shrink from the intellectual monotony of their sex, and to view with
increasing admiration the male mind; for as the gates of the harem are
being broken down, and the gloom of the female mind clears, it becomes
certain that woman brings a loftier reverence to the shrine of man than
she has done in any past age, seeing, as she now does, in him the
incarnation of the freedom of which she is vaguely conscious and which
she is perceptibly acquiring. So sets the main current that is bearing
civilization along; but beneath the great feminine tide there is an
undercurrent of hatred and revolt. This is particularly observable in
the leaders of the movement; women who in the tumult of their
aspirations, and their passionate yearnings towards the new ideal, and
the memory of the abasement their sex have been in the past, and are
still being in the present, subjected to, forget the laws of life, and
with virulent virtue and protest condemn love--that is to say, love in
the sense of sexual intercourse--and proclaim a higher mission for woman
than to be the mother of men: and an adjuvant, unless corrected by
sanative qualities of a high order, is, of course, found in any physical
defect. But as the corporeal and incorporeal hereditaments of Alice
Barton and Lady Cecilia Cullen were examined fully in the beginning of
this chapter, it is only necessary to here indicate the order of
ideas--the moral atmosphere of the time--to understand the efflorescence
of the two minds, and to realize how curiously representative they are
of this last quarter of the nineteenth century.

And it was necessary to make that survey of psychical cause and effect
to appreciate the sentiments that actuated Alice in her relationship
with Harding. She loved him, but more through the imagination than the
heart. She knew he was deceiving her, but to her he meant so much that
she had not the force of will to cast him off, and abandoned herself to
the intellectual sensualism of his society. It was this, and nothing
more. What her love might have been it is not necessary to analyze; in
the present circumstances, it was completely merged in the knowledge
that he was to her, light, freedom, and instruction, and that when he
left, darkness and ignorance would again close in upon her. They had not
spoken for some moments. With a cruelty that was peculiar to him, he
waited for her to break the silence.

'I am sorry you are going away; I am afraid we shall never meet again.'

'Oh yes, we shall,' he replied: 'you'll get married one of these days
and come to live in London.'

'Why should I go to live in London?'

'There are Frenchmen born in England, Englishmen born in France. Heine
was a Frenchman born in Germany--and you are a Kensingtonian. I see
nothing Irish in you. Oh, you are very Kensington, and therefore you
will--I do not know when or how, but assuredly as a stream goes to the
river and the river to the sea, you will drift to your native
place--Kensington. But do you know that I have left the hotel? There
were too many people about to do much work, so I took rooms in
Molesworth Street--there I can write and read undisturbed. You might
come and see me.'

'I should like to very much, but I don't think I could ask mother to
come with me; she is so very busy just now.'

'Well, don't ask your mother to come; you won't be afraid to come
alone?'

'I am afraid I could not do that.'

'Why not? No one will ever know anything about it.'

'Very possibly, but I don't think it would be a proper thing to do--I
don't think it would be a _right_ thing to do.'

'Right! I thought we had ceased to believe in heaven and hell.'

'Yes; but does that change anything? There are surely duties that we owe
to our people, to our families. The present ordering of things may be
unjust, but, as long as it exists, had we not better live in accordance
with it?'

'A very sensible answer, and I suppose you are right.'

Alice looked at him in astonishment, but she was shaken too intensely in
all her feelings to see that he was perfectly sincere, that his answer
was that of a man who saw and felt through his intelligence, and not his
conscience.

The conversation had come to a pause, and the silence was broken
suddenly by whispered words, and the abundant laughter that was
seemingly used to hide the emotions that oppressed the speakers. Finally
they sat down quite close to, but hidden from, Alice and Harding by a
screen, and through the paper even their breathing was audible. All the
dancers were gone; there was scarcely a white skirt or black coat in the
pale blueness of the room. Evidently the lovers thought they were well
out of reach of eavesdroppers. Alice felt this, but before she could
rise to go Fred Scully had said--

'Now, May, I hope you won't refuse to let me come and see you in your
room to-night. It would be too cruel if you did. I'll steal along the
passage; no one will hear, no one will ever know, and I'll be so very
good. I promise you I will.'

'Oh, Fred, I'm afraid I can't trust you; it would be so very wicked.'

'Nothing is wicked when we really love; besides, I only want to talk to
you.'

'You can talk to me here.'

'Yes, but it isn't the same thing; anyone can talk to you here. I want
to show you a little poem I cut out of a newspaper to-day for you. I'll
steal along the passage--no one will ever know.'

'You'll promise to be very good, and you won't stop more than five
minutes.'

The words were spoken in low, soft tones, exquisitely expressive of the
overthrow of reason and the merging of all the senses in the sweet
abandonment of passion.

Alice sat unable to move, till at last, awakening with a pained look in
her grey eyes, she touched Harding's hand with hers, and, laying her
finger on her lips, she arose. Their footfalls made no sound on the
deep, soft carpet.

'This is very terrible,' she murmured, half to herself.

Harding had too much tact to answer; and, taking advantage of the
appearance of Violet Scully, who came walking gaily down the room on the
Marquis's arm, he said:

'Your friend Miss Scully seems to be in high spirits.'

Violet exchanged smiles with Alice as she passed. The smile was one of
triumph. She had waltzed three times with the Marquis, and was now going
to sit out a set of quadrilles.

'What a beautiful waltz the _Blue Danube_ is!' she said, leading her
admirer to where the blue fans were numerous. Upon the glistening piano
stood a pot filled with white azaleas; and, in the pauses of the
conversation, one heard the glass of the chandeliers tinkling gently to
the vibration of the music.

'It is a beautiful waltz when I am dancing it with you.'

'I am sure you say that to every girl you dance with.'

'No, I shouldn't know how to say so to anyone but you,' said the little
man humbly; and so instinct were the words with truth that the girl, in
the violence of her emotion, fancied her heart had ceased to beat.

'But you haven't known me a fortnight,' she answered involuntarily.

'But that doesn't matter; the moment I saw you, I--I--liked you. It is
so easy to know the people we--like; we know it at once--at least I do.'

She was more self-possessed than he, but the words 'Am I--am I going to
be a marchioness?' throbbed like a burning bullet sunk into the very
centre of her forehead. And to maintain her mental equipoise she was
forced, though by doing so she felt she was jeopardizing her chances, to
coquette with him. After a long silence she said:

'Oh, do you think we know at first sight the people we like? Do you
believe in first impressions?'

'My first and last impressions of you are always the same. All I know is
that when you are present all things are bright, beautiful, and
cheering, and when you are away I don't much care what happens. Now,
these Castle balls used to bore me to death last year; I used to go into
a back room and fall asleep. But this year I am as lively as a kitten--I
think I could go on for ever, and the Castle seems to me the most
glorious place on earth. I used to hate it; I was as bad as Parnell, but
not for the same reasons, of course. Now I am only afraid he will have
his way, and they'll shut the whole place up. Anyhow, even if they do, I
shall always look back upon this season as a very happy time.'

'But you do not really think that Parnell will be allowed to have his
way?' said Violet inadvertently.

'I don't know; I don't take much interest in politics, but I believe
things are going to the bad. Dublin, they say, is undermined with secret
societies, and the murder that was committed the other day in Sackville
Street was the punishment they inflict on those whom they suspect of
being informers, even remotely.'

'But don't you think the Government will soon be obliged to step in and
put an end to all this kind of thing?'

'I don't know; I'm afraid they'll do nothing until we landlords are all
ruined.'

Violet's thin face contracted. She had introduced a subject that might
prevent him from ever proposing to her. She knew how heavily the
Kilcarney estates were mortgaged; and, even now, as she rightly
conjectured, the poor little man was inwardly trembling at the folly it
had been on his lips to speak. Three of his immediate ancestors had
married penniless girls, and it was well known that another love-match
would precipitate the property over that precipice known to every Irish
landowner--the Encumbered Estates Court. But those dainty temples, so
finely shaded with light brown tresses, that delicately moulded
head--delicate as an Indian carven ivory, dispelled all thoughts of his
property, and he forgot his duty to marry an heiress. Violet meanwhile,
prompted by her instinct, said the right words:

'But things never turn out as well or as badly as we expect them to.'

This facile philosophy went like wine to the little Marquis's head, and
he longed to throw himself at the feet of his goddess and thank her for
the balm she had poured upon him. The gloom of approaching ruin
disappeared, and he saw nothing in the world but a white tulle skirt, a
thin foot, a thin bosom, and a pair of bright grey eyes. Vaguely he
sought for equivalent words, but loud-talking dancers passed into the
room, and, abashed by their stares, the Marquis broke off a flowering
branch and said, stammering the while incoherently:

'Will you keep this in memory of this evening?'

Violet thrust the flowers into her bosom, and was about to thank him,
when an A.D.C. came up and claimed her for the dance. She told him he
was mistaken, that she was engaged; and, taking Lord Kilcarney's arm,
they made their way in silence back to the ball-room. Violet was
satisfied; she felt now very sure of her Marquis, and, as they
approached Mrs. Scully, a quick glance said that things were going as
satisfactorily as could be desired. Not daring to trust herself to the
gossip of the chaperons, this excellent lady sat apart, maintaining the
solitary dignity to which the Galway counter had accustomed her. She
received the Marquis with the same smile as she used to bestow on her
best customers, and they talked for a few minutes of the different
aspects of the ball-room, of their friends, of things that did not
interest them. Then Violet said winsomely, affecting an accent of
command that enchanted him:

'Now I want you to go and dance with someone else; let me see--what do
you say to Olive Barton? If you don't, I shall be in her mother's black
books for the rest of my life. Now go. We shall be at home to-morrow;
you might come in for tea;' and, suffocated with secret joy, Lord
Kilcarney made his way across the room to Mrs. Barton, who foolishly
cancelled a couple of Olive's engagements, and sent her off to dance
with him, whereas wise Violet sat by her mother, refusing all her
partners; but, when _God Save the Queen_ was played, she accepted Lord
Kilcarney's arm, and they pressed forward to see the Lord-Lieutenant and
Her Excellency pass down the room.

Violet's eyes feasted on the bowing black coats and light toilettes,
and, leaning on her escutcheon, she dreamed vividly of the following
year when she would take her place amid all these noble people, and, as
high as they, stand a peeress on the dais.

XX

'So you couldn't manage to keep him after all, my lady? When did he
leave the hotel?'

'Mr. Harding left Dublin last Monday week.'

Alice wondered if her mother hated her; if she didn't, it was difficult
to account for her cruel words. And this was the girl's grief, and she
feared that hatred would beget hatred, and that she would learn to hate
her mother. But Mrs. Barton was a loving and affectionate mother, who
would sacrifice herself for one child almost as readily for the other.
In each of us there are traits that the chances of life have never
revealed; and though she would have sat by the bedside, even if Alice
were stricken with typhoid fever, Mrs. Barton recoiled spitefully like a
cat before the stern rectitudes of a nature so dissimilar from her own.
She had fashioned Olive, who was now but a pale copy of her mother
according to her guise: all the affectations had been faithfully
reproduced, but the charm of the original had evaporated like a perfume.
It would be rash to say that Mrs. Barton did not see that the weapons
which had proved so deadly in her hands were ineffectual in her
daughter's; but twenty years of elegant harlotry had blunted her finer
perceptions, and now the grossest means of pushing Olive and the Marquis
morally and physically into each other's arms seemed to her the best.
Alice was to her but a plain girl, whose misfortune was that she had
ever been born. This idea had grown up with Mrs. Barton, and fifteen
years ago she had seen in the child's face the spinster of fifty. But
since the appearance of Harding, and the manifest interest he had shown
in her daughter, Mrs. Barton's convictions that Alice would never be
able to find a husband had been somewhat shaken, and she had almost
concluded that it would be as well--for there was no knowing what men's
tastes were--to give her a chance. Nor was the dawning fancy dispelled
by the fact that Harding had not proposed, and the cutting words she had
addressed to the girl were the result of the nervous irritation caused
by the marked attention the Marquis was paying Violet Scully.

For, like Alice, Mrs. Barton never lived long in a fool's paradise, and
she now saw that the battle was going against her, and would most
assuredly be lost unless a determined effort was made. So she delayed
not a moment in owning to herself that she had committed a mistake in
going to the Shelbourne Hotel. Had she taken a house in Mount Street or
Fitzwilliam Place, she could have had all the best men from the barracks
continually at her house. But at the hotel she was helpless; there were
too many people about, too many beasts of women criticizing her conduct.
Mrs. Barton had given two dinner-parties in a private room hired for the
occasion; but these dinners could scarcely be called successful. On one
occasion they had seven men to dinner, and as some half-dozen more
turned in in the evening, it became necessary to send down to the
ladies' drawing-room for partners. Bertha Duffy and the girl in red of
course responded to the call, but they had rendered everything odious by
continuous vulgarity and brogue. Then other mistakes had been made. A
charity costume ball had been advertised. It was to be held in the
Rotunda. An imposing list of names headed the prospectus, and it was
confidently stated that all the lady patronesses would attend. Mrs.
Barton fell into the trap, and, to her dismay, found herself and her
girls in the company of the rag, tag, and bobtail of Catholic Dublin:
Bohemian girls fabricated out of bed-curtains, negro minstrels that an
application of grease and burnt cork had brought into a filthy
existence. And from the single gallery that encircled this tomb-like
building the small tradespeople looked down upon the multicoloured crowd
that strove to dance through the mud that a late Land League meeting had
left upon the floor; and all the while grey dust fell steadily into the
dancers' eyes and into the sloppy tea distributed at counters placed
here and there like coffee-stands in the public street.

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